Lately I feel that I am forcing a real fork in the road. Well several forks. And when I think about it, it all becomes very overwhelming.
I don't know what lies ahead, I don't know how one choice will affect my other choices in the future. I can guess, but I can't know.
Sometimes I stop and think why I couldn't have chosen a more mainstream career. One where you get to a company, work your way up and feel somewhat secure. But if I did that I think my life would be a little more
When I look at that I know its not the right choice. I know that even if I haven't quite figured out who I am I know at least what I don't want. With all of the craziness and uncertainty at least I have more options. More chances to do or experience something that I don't even know exists yet. My life has been full of surprises. In the midst of it it was all very stressful with dizzying highes and bottomless lows. But it's been interesting. I will take an interesting life over anything else. I think I'd rather live in the extremes than be in the middle all of the time. When it comes right down to it I just really need to keep that in perspective so that I can weather through the uncertainty until it carries me on to the next adventure!