With this failure challenge I have been experimenting a lot and working through a lot of my own problems. I've been breaking out of the cage of my mind and doing new things. This has been fantastic. Sometimes when I try something new I can't wait for it to be over and I hate it. That in itself is some form of progress! Yet more often than not I find that the hours fly by and any noise of the outside world receded to an imperceptible buzz. All of my worries and emotions quiet down as if they know something important is happening and they must now wait their turn to be heard. I am lost to the outside world but during those moments I have found myself completely and I know who I am.
When hunger or phone shakes me out of this I am often startled by how much time has passed. I take note. When I Get Lost....I know I have found something important to me. Something worth doing, something worth learning and pursuing
When I sketch at a cafe, I am lost. When I sculpt, I am lost. When I animate, I am lost. These things I knew. What I did not know is that I would so loose myself in painting, and designing. In finding those moments that I can shake the world loose and have only myself to dominate my awareness, I have stumbled onto new paths I never thought I'd cross.
So I think the thing I have taken away from all this is the only way to find yourself is to Get Lost.
FAILURE CHALLENGE #16
|Painting during the day and at sunset from my balcony facing west for the purpose of studying the changing light. I used Acrylic and spent about 5 min on each painting.|